Day Three of The One seminar, and Niki and I are closer than ever.
We committed to eight Sundays, two hours each, for The One seminar. This isn’t only a preparation for marriage, it’s a deep, clear-cut look at yourself as an individual, and what you’re bringing into the relationship.
It’s been an extremely difficult and yet amazing past three weeks, as we’ve been given opportunities to really open up to each other. And it’s amazing just how many revelations have been given to both of us! God is slowly showing me the kind of man i’m taking as a husband – kind, intelligent, strong and full of integrity. I mean, i already knew that i was marrying a great guy, but i didn’t know he still had so much to him and i simply didn’t know how to explore it. I find myself looking at him and feeling sorry for all the other girls who didn’t get to see what i see now – and thankful that they didn’t. Ha!
On the other hand, i’ve also been taking a long, hard look at myself. It’s not easy seeing all the flaws, all the lack and insecurities. But the best reward – after accepting all of those imperfections – is the abundance of forgiveness. Oh such forgiveness! I don’t think i could ever describe the feeling of freedom that forgiveness gives. Forgiving myself is the hardest part, but i’m choosing it every single day. In the process, i’m learning just how beautiful God made me. I’m not an accident or a random occurrence. I was created with purpose, every fibre linked and weaved together lovingly. Amazing grace, indeed.
This preparation for marriage has made preparing for the wedding so much easier. I find it unnecessary to stress about just one day when you’ve got a whole lifetime together to look forward to!
It’s a little ridiculous when people assume i’m going to turn into some kind of bridezilla… if they only knew the bigger things that niki and i have had to deal with. Trust me – choosing a caterer or designer is peanuts in comparison to laying your heart out on the table.
When people ask me “so, are you turning into a bridezilla?”, i automatically take them off the guest list. HAHA. Just kidding.
I simply don’t find it necessary to reply. I’ll just sit back, relax, and let our lives do the talking. And i am faithful that no matter what, it’s going to be a celebration that we will remember lovingly for the rest of our lives 🙂